Monday, April 14, 2008

God's Plan Realized

Now that I'm getting close to coming home, I hope that God doesn't take me before I get a chance to realize the dream I have envisioned here in the middle of so much kaos. But you know what? If he does I will understand and hope you will too. The bottom line is that God has a plan, and we are all part of it, for better and for worse. It's not all about the individual. It's about the plan.

I look forward to coming home and taking Christian men to the next level through adventure. I want to introduce Christian men to that God given right to burn for something positive. Whether it's surfing, climbing, diving, whatever, we need to tap into that source of incredible courage, confidence, discipline and faith that only a loving God could give us.

I want to lead Christian men to reach out and touch the face of God through brotherhood and higher conciousness and pure adrenaline. This blog is the beginning of my new mission.

This blog is my heart on paper. It's for freaking real. I have been shot at here, contracted a bacteria thats eating a hole in my intestines and stomach, poured my inner thoughts out to complete strangers, why? Because I want to be closer to my Christian brothers and sisters, be a part of something bigger than myself. If that means I have to drop my guard, so be it. If that means that I make this entry tonight and die tomorrow, so be it. If it means that this blog is what I leave on this earth, right on! The bottom line is this. Until you have truly appreciated what can be taken from you or had something precious taken from you, you dont know what you've already got.

"It is not the critic who counts: not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles or where the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly, who errs and comes up short again and again, because there is no effort without error or shortcoming, but who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, who spends himself for a worthy cause; who, at the best, knows, in the end, the triumph of high achievement, and who, at the worst, if he fails, at least he fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who knew neither victory nor defeat." Theodore Roosevelt

There really isnt much more to say. God bless all of you reading this and keep the prayers coming.


Friday, April 11, 2008

I'm Still in One Piece

I apologize to those of you who have worried about me because I havent had a chance to write in awhile. Thank you for the prayers and concerns.

I was in a very remote site for a month and a half where I couldnt get an internet connection. Now I'm in a remote site but we actually have internet. The wonders of modern technology.

The last couple months has been relatively interesting. Nothing sexy, just normal combat zone stuff.

I pray probably 3 times a day, compared to the Muslim 5, but my prayer hasn't been robotic, because I have to prayers, they have been real, spending time with God prayers. This trip has shown me what prayer is all about. Last time I was here I wasn't as serious as I am now about my faith. Now, without it, I would just be a weak excuse for a man. I depend on it. I think God led me here to teach me the way to truly be balanced, and to write my thoughts down so others could relate.

I would just like to say that, for me, I am closer to God when I am out of my comfort zone. Why? Because he is our father, and I'm his son. It's just that simple. I truly believe that and it makes me feel good nomatter what the circumstance is. Makes me feel as though I'm part of a bigger picture and I like that.

I know some of the things I've written have been over dramatic or raw or hardcore for some of you. As I look back on what I wrote I can only say that I had the Holy Spirit pumping through my vains. As a "new" Christian, it's hard to manage sometimes. When a baby rattle snake is born, it pretty much has the same size venom sacs as a full grown rattler, from what I hear, and if a baby snake bites you he will give you all he's got. He hasn't learned from time and experience that you dont blast all your venom out at one time you need to conserve some or you wont have any left for multiple strikes. The difference between me and a baby snake is that my venom is the Holy Spirit. If I got alittle over the top for some you, I apologize but it's all part of my growth as a Christian. I want as many people to read this as possible because I've put alot of energy into it but if it's not your trip, that's okay too.

I should be coming home soon. I contracted a bacteria here called, H Pylori. I went to the Army doctor here and they did a bunch of test's and said basically that I had to go home right now because they think it ate a hole in my stomach or intestines. That was 2 weeks ago and I'm staying for another 2 weeks. There's a fine line between being hard and stupid, but I'm staying because I want to finish something that I started here.

I miss my church, the beach, family and friends. Thank you for the prayers and keep them coming because I dont want to be the guy in the war movie who was on his trip home and got bumped off, but if it happens, I will get to meet Jesus.......I hope he's not pissed at me.

Talk to you all soon.